Of weighty issues:

How many of us at one time or the other feel that we are not at our desired weight? More often than not, there is a need to lost some than gain some. Many may set a target to be achieved. And yet, how many, once reached that target felt that there is more room for improvements? A little more tone? A little less around the tummy? A little more around the bust area? Less cellulites and stretch marks?

Personally i alternate between being bothered about losing weight and yearning to believe that you should be comfortable the way you are. And usually there is the specific target group where i will alternate between these two extremes. I would complain, gossip, aspired to girl friends for the need to lose weight, and display other such insecurities about my body and its many imperfections. But on the other hand, this is not something i am comfortable voicing to a significant other. To verbalize such compliants and hopes would indicate an acknowledgment of one's bodily imperfections and draw attention to the fact that "I am FAT" to him or her. It all gets very politically correct (PC) from this point on. I don't want to open the floodgates where my SO will too feel that i need to lose some weight. On the contrary, I hopethat he or she will accept me as i am, extra pounds or not. Hence, while it is okie that i feel that i need to lose some weight, it is not okie for the SO to know that i feel that i need to lose some weight. Which is why, there is the need to put forth the view that i am comfortable with what i am (paraphrased: please be comfortable with what i am NOW too).

It seems terribly unnecessary to go through all these mental hassles after all, it is really something that stems from my personal insecurities about my body mass. I don't think it is unreasonable to feel that only i have the right to criticize my own body. Perhaps what it really comes down to, is that i had really secretly yearn that while i hope that people can accept me as i am and feel comfortable about how heavy i am, i too can feel that way and be totally free from ever feeling that i need to lose weight.

A projection of an ideal for others, when it is really for myself.